Good morning Goose! Tomorrow is one of your favorite holidays, so I've been jamming out to your Irish pub music. Songs like; Finnegan's Wake, Rose Tattoo, and Rocky Road to Dublin always make me think of you. You would play your tunes and dance around like no one was watching. That's one of the many things I love about you, you lived like no one was watching. You didn't care if people made fun of you, you loved life and lived it. I know your Grandpa wouldn't normally listen to that type of music, but I think for you he will. See if he'll join you in dancing a jig, or at least tapping a toe. I was going to go listen to an Irish band playing tomorrow but I think it's too soon and I don't feel like sobbing in public. I'm great at crying in my car, but not so much in public.
I started planning this years walk and fingers crossed the weather will hold like it did last year. I know you'll do what you can to make it happen. I realize you don't control the weather, but if you could put in a good word, that would be great. It's so strange to think you would have been turning 13 this year. A teenager! Would you have had a girlfriend? Lol, no wait, over MY dead body. I wonder what clubs you would have joined, what classes you would have been taking. You would have been the smartest kid there, so probably all advanced classes. I guess learning comes easy when you're 105 years old. There are so many things I can wonder about, but I try not to do that to myself. It's too painful. I mean all of this is painful, but that really stings. The coulda shoulda been thoughts. I know by now you realize how much I miss you physically. This house is too quiet, and it needs a childs laughter in it. I will always miss you Goose. Until you greet me at the end of my journey, I will miss you. No matter what happens in this life, no matter if I get moments of joy, I will miss you. I will get moments of joy one day. I am finally at a place where I can say that and believe it. I will get them, because I honestly want them. I don't want to be the victim, I don't want to be sad. I had true happiness once and I believe I will have it again. It will be bittersweet of course, everything in my life is bittersweet, but there will be joy nonetheless.
You have been helping me on my new found spiritual journey and for that I thank you. I am learning things I never would have imagined. I am surrounding myself with positive people who want to do good in this world, and help people. When I do I feel you so much more around me, I hear you and its amazing. It's funny Grandpa is my co-pilot in the car, and you're my co-pilot everywhere else. You two are a great team and I'm glad you have my back. I let Jaspy into your room today to walk around. I let him in about once a week, I just sit and watch him. He is so happy in there, he must feel you. He starts purring like crazy and doing the "kneading the dough" with his paws. He only needs a couple minutes in there and then he's good for another couple days. You must have been in there recently, some of the council members were on the floor. I don't let Jaspy in there un-supervised and the door is always shut so.....
Oh the Irish Moose! So recently I decided to do the DNA testing thing just for fun and guess what, I'm part Irish! You must be over the moon on that one! So now you are even more Irish than you were before, and I can finally celebrate with you! Lol, I had no idea but yup I am also Irish, and since green was already my favorite color I'm all set. It's not a large percentage but hey a little is better than nothing!
I'm going to go for now, I have a lot to do around here I've been so busy lately that the house has been neglected. I don't suppose you'd be willing to learn how to dust? You can get back to me on that one.
I love you Goose