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Morning September 14
September 14, 2017
Captain's (late) Log: Good mid-morning Goose! (Good mid-morning Moose!) had to bring the puppers for a booster, and should have done my post before I left the house, but I didn't so we're running late today. So far today doing okay, a few teary moments here and there but no major meltdowns (yet) to speak of. I was thinking of your tub toys this morning as I got in the shower. You hadn't used them in a long time, but I still had them just in case you felt like being silly. Today I thought, oh he'll never be using them again and that made me sad. For the most part though, I can say you and I were pretty good about checking things off our to-do list. We would make a plan and do it, or sometimes just seat of our pants and have an adventure. When my Dad died I had all those thoughts of "gee I wish I had spent more time with him", with you I don't have those thoughts. I of course wish with all my heart I still had you here to spend time with, but I don't have any regrets about the time we did spend. I built my life around you, my work, my school, everything was to maximize the time spent with you. I always looked at it for your benefit, so that when I was gone you wouldn't feel like we didn't spend enough time together. Little did I know the Universe knew better. I hear some people joke "can't wait for school to start, get these kids out of my hair", I never wanted you out of my hair. Ever. If you can't stand your kids, that's your fault you raised them that way. Life is so short, time is too precious, none of it should be wasted and we never did. I was trying to find more pieces to that coded puzzle, no luck. What I did find was I had forgotten you took a set of pins for yourself for here out of the stash. For those that don't know, my smarty pants was in Odyssey of the Mind for the past 2 years. Last year the team made it to the world finals in Michigan (longest most worth it drive ever). The pin trading out there is like nothing I have seen, total mayhem. When I got out there Neil and his Dad had already been trading, and Goose picked out a special one just for me. It was perfect, it is a phoenix and I love it. I have a tattoo on my back that I got after my Dad died to symbolize rebirth. How appropriate. Goose was kind of done with trading by the time I got there, but I got to see the little negotiator in action. He was helping his friends negotiate in getting the pins they wanted. He loved to help others, he also loved to talk so that was kind of a perfect job for him. Lol, I found this bookmark while on my search. Any parent in your school (maybe others I don't know) know how true this is. You came home with PILES of drawn on post-its, and so I thought it was hilarious that you added to the bottom *picturing*. Silly Goose :)